When I was eleven I started sleeping a lot. Some days I couldn’t even get out of bed because I was so tired, then I started losing weight. We went to the doctor and she said I was fine but I kept getting sicker and sicker so we went to the Children’s Hospital for some tests and that was four years ago. I haven’t left the hospital since. I have leukemia and it has me bad. The doctors said I would die young

I’ve done all the chemo and radiation treatments, but it’s too late now. The cancer has spread to my lymph nodes and my spine. At this point I have maybe six to twelve months to live but nobody can be sure. My mom and dad have been really good about spending a lot of time with me, even though sometimes they fight about things. I don’t want to let them down. I said I’d keep fighting this and holding on it’s just hard sometimes. Now I can’t hold on to fight the cancer because I didn’t fight hard enough and it’s got me beat, but I can fight to hold on long enough to live out my dream.

If I make it, I’ll turn sixteen in March. I don’t have nice hair and I’m not on any varsity teams, so I don’t have the normal things going for me boys my age do. I don’t even know any girls except Mandy who used to come visit her brother here, but that was a while ago and they don’t come anymore. I’m at that age where I want to know at least a couple girls and maybe one of them really really well if she’ll let me.

Before I die I want to not be a virgin anymore. There is a place that can help me, even at my age, and another company that can get me there with a life support crew. Maybe you remember how hard it was to do it the first time. I’ve got a lot working against me between my shortness of breath, frailty and a lot of people just get sad around me. I need your help.

I talked with my priest and he had to go up the chain of command to get an answer, but I won’t go to hell for it. In fact they support me too. There’s still a lot to do but I will live long enough, I will raise enough money, I will go to Hedonism, and I will not die a virgin.

So this is my story so far. It doesn’t have any good plot or a twist they would make a movie out of, but it can have a happy ending and I can’t do it alone. How my story ends is what you can help me with because there is still time but not a whole lot of it. Please click on the How to Help tab and take the next step with me and don’t let me die a virgin.